#SeyiSpeaks: 2018 Goals

2017 sucked. While there were a few positive moments, the negative was quite overwhelming. I would say that this year comes in at very very close second of being one of the hardest years of my life (2016 taking the cake). I am vowing that 2018 will be much better, by God’s grace. So, here I am, writing out my 2018 goals spanning across all genres (physical, mental, etc.).

Some people may be thinking “Why the hell is this girl writing down her goals for the world to see?” But I am a firm believer in being held accountable for things. If I tell someone I am going to do a certain thing, something in my mind goes GIRL, YOU BETTER DO THAT THING! I am not a New years Resolution type of person anymore. These things below aren’t necessarily things that I plan to start on January 1. Rather, they are things that I hope to tackle and accomplish as the year goes on. Although I am holding myself accountable, I’m not putting pressure on myself. That pretty much sucks the fun out of a goal. So here goes nothing!

Physical

Work out consistently. I say this damn near every year, but as I am getting older, my body is on some “you getter get fit, like right now”. I’m not necessarily trying to lose a whole lot of weight (maybe like, 10-15 pounds because ya girl has put on a nice chunk), but more so to be active. I should not be out of breath by going up the flight of stairs to get to my apartment. I also know that working out will help release some much needed endorphins. My whole attitude and outlook on life has been trash for the last few months so I am on a mission to make working out an official part of my lifestyle.

Eat better. It’s crazy to see how much your body can change year to year and how certain things you thought you could get away with eating come back to haunt you. I don’t like restricting myself though. Although there are certain things I don’t eat anymore, I know there are much healthier alternatives that I can include in my diet. And there are some things that I can cut back on *cough cough* candy…

Mental

Consistently see a therapist. My mom passed a year and a half ago and to this day I have gone to the therapist one time. I’ve been avoiding it because I know that once I go, I’m going to be an emotional wreck. And that scares me. It scares me to confront my emotions head on, with someone else in the room. When I’m by myself, I can cry all day long. But having to talk through those emotions with someone else just feels so, foreign. I am Nigerian. Therapy isn’t something that I grew up knowing was an option. It was always put as this thing for people who are mentally ill. And I knew I didn’t fall into that category so I assumed I would never need it. Then June 2016 happened and my whole world fell apart. So here’s to hopefully confronting all my emotions and insecurities head on.

Remind myself that I am worth it. I consider myself pretty damn confident. Like, no one can tell me anything. But then, there comes this small teeny weeny voice that likes to mess with my mind. This voice likes convincing me that everything I’ve done is trash compared to what other people have done. It likes to hone in on my insecurities of being alone and makes me believe that I am annoying to everyone around me. This voice has a tendency to pick on the little things that I’ve always struggled with: not perfectly clear skin, body weight, wanting to be the best, never wanting to fail. I literally have to look at myself in the mirror and remind myself that the way I am is the way I am supposed to be in that moment. I don’t ever think that feeling insecure is something that goes completely away. But like grief, I do believe it is something that fades over time.

Spiritually

Talk to God. I pretty much gave up prayer after my mom passed. In 2017, I slowly started getting more comfortable with prayer again. But I would say that I have been at a 5% comfortability, which is LOW. Again, I am scared. Although I know that God knows all my heart desires and wants and fears, I still have this apprehension that if I open my mouth to ask God of something, I am going to be hit with resounding disappointment. I also know that is the work of the enemy. But my mind is at odds with both concepts. So I need to work on getting my mind back on one track. I do still believe that God is inherently good, and that all things work the way they need to. I have internally fought with God a whole lot this past year. And I am tired of fighting. I’m scared of releasing too. But somethings gotta give.

Start my day with God. That means waking up, and instead of turning to my phone to open Instagram, I open it to read a devotional. Or start the day with at least a small prayer. I’ve heard that doing so sets the tone for the day and I have been slacking in that department.

Relationships

Actively pray for a partner. I’m not really one to talk about this because, it’s somewhat of a sensitive topic. This past year I did not want to enter into any kind of intimate relationship of any sort. I was in a horrible emotional state and I just did not want to add on to that by “catching” feelings for someone else that may not have the emotional capacity to understand what I was going through. So, I told God that I was good on that front. And he heard my voice because this year was DRY. Nigerian families try to convince you that a partner will solve all your problems. I don’t believe that AT ALL. Will a partner help alleviate some of those problems, sure, why wouldn’t they? But eliminate them all together?? Why put that pressure on someone when I would not want that pressure put on me.

I am not expecting for my partner to be my “mother, father, brother, sister” as my aunties would say. I want someone who sees what I am doing and thinks, “you know what, I can add to that, POSITIVELY” and vice versa. In 2016, I stopped praying for a partner. Nothing was happening and I was getting discouraged. But there is still that part of me that longs for something like that. Yes, I can do bad all by myself, but sometimes you want someone that can do that with you, ya know. So, here’s to being open to love in 2018. I am NERVOUS. Good lordt. But here’s to taking a leap of faith.

Appreciate my friends for who they are. I can admit that internally, I have put some high expectations on my friends. And there have been times where those expectations were not communicated. What I’ve come to realize is that I need to be more open about my needs and wants. I also realized that that there are going to be times when they will not be able to meet me at that point. And that is ok. Does it make them a bad friend, no it doesn’t. I cannot put God-like expectations on a human being. That is a recipe for disappointment. And that’s what I was doing. So in 2018, I am removing those impossible expectations and learning to appreciate those around me for who they are and how they have edified my life up until now.

BLOGGING

Post to the blog at least 5 times a week. It may sound easy but it honestly isn’t. That’s what I wanted to do in the last quarter of 2017 but life quite literally got in the way and I had to understand by bandwidth. In 2018, I am ready. Ready to share more my life. More of my ever changing style and beauty tips. Just more of me. This is probably the most excited I have ever been for this platform to become something MUCH more than what it already is. I believe in my talent. I believe in the work I do. And I think that’s really all you need to be successful.

FINANCIALLY

Increase my credit score. I am on a mission to get my credit score to a level that allows me to *ahem* live my best life. Which means being strict on my spending habits. Which is going to be hard. But it’s not at all impossible so here’s to living our best stress free financially fiscal lives! I’m going to be checking my credit score once a week (seems obsessive but a lot can happen in a week).

Save. You all already know the deal. I want to have a robust savings account by the end of the year. There have been so many minor emergencies that happened in 2017 that would have been less stressful if I had substantial savings. I’ve learned my lesson(s) and I am ready. I’m actually thinking of hiring a financial planner. Someone who is actually skilled in this area. But we’ll see if my finances actually allow that.

Travel. I include this under financial goals because it requires a nice chunk of money. I have been saying that 2018 is the year of travel for me and I believe that words hold a lot of power. So, by God’s grace, I will be galavanting across the globe with those that I love (perhaps a bae-cation even?? haha).

This was long, and if you made it to the end, kudos to you! If you skipped some and read others, I’ve giving you a high five. Either way, you took the time out to read this post and for that I am grateful and thankful. Here’s to a better 2018. Here’s to living our best lives!

H&M Sweater Dress | Zara Velvet OTK Boots

Until next year…

All Photography by Kristen Ashley

6 COMMENTS

  1. Vincent Desmond | 12th Jan 18

    Firsrt off I love your Sweater dress, secondly I’m Nigerian so I understand the inability to go see a therapist even when it is needed. Thirdly 5 posts weekly will be so coooll.
    Hope you have a great year

    vincentdesmond.com

    • thedailyseyi | 16th Jan 18

      Thanks so much Vincent! I hope the same for you!! Appreciate you always showing support!

  2. prettyshynerd | 29th Dec 17

    I’m really with you on some of this concerning therapy, spiritual growth, working out and being financially accountable. I wish you the best girl ❤. God’s grace in 2018.

  3. xokestrel | 29th Dec 17

    Cosigning therapy, starting my day with God and getting that credit score all the way together! I hope 2018 brings you all the desires of your heart!

  4. Joy | 29th Dec 17

    Love this! Here’s to living and loving your best life in 2018!

  5. Briana | 29th Dec 17

    I absolutely love you girl!!! Live your best life in 2018.

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